Creating a New Path

Quick disclaimer,so although I try to be as unbiased and as fair as possible when retelling these stories, I might still get some facts wrong, this is my story. Now where was I, oh yeah in the middle of sharing a story. So after running into this old friend I came away with a new sense of peace, which had been missing for such a long time. The one thing I was still lacking and I am still lacking is closure. Appearances might not be quite what they seem, but from a distance she looked really happy. And I am honestly hoping that after everything she does find herself true happiness and joy.

The second interesting development was getting the chance to talk to a good friend after several months. Funny story is her and I took a mini break from each other, when we last saw each other we weren't on the best terms, but not the worst either. All these months later and we are still friends, she is someone I can still confide in, which for me is rare nowadays. Yesterday she introduced me to a few interesting ideas and a book recommendation. It all revolved around how to put myself back together to move forward and the actual concept of forgiveness. Not just saying, oh I forgive you, but actually implementing it into your everyday life. Then I went on to tell her about my run in and she had her own opinion on the subject which led me to realize a few more things.

This person who once was my absolute best friend, does not have to be my enemy, she just isn't my friend anymore. Unfortunately and I know this for a fact, directly from my ex-friend, she will never forgive me, and with the language she used I am almost certain she hates me. I will not disclose the circumstances that ended a decade long friendship, but I will simply let you know that it was not a guy or a lie. Yesterday, I officially accepted that her and I will never be friends again. However, just because she completely incinerated all the paths, I don't have to do the same.

I thought that when it ended, that she burned everything with her including all of the good, the memories and happy moments. Because when a romantic relationship ends you don't want anything to do with anything that person came in contact with ever. I know now that I can keep the good and accept the bad for what it is.

So my good friend, reminded me that in our lives we are gonna have so many people who come and go, and obstacles that we have to face. We all need to know how to forgive those who hurt us, but also learn what to take away from each relationship and situation. I know I can't just walk around this world holding onto the hope for closure or anger because I didn't get any. I am only responsible for my own actions and I can only that others take responsibility for theirs as well. So my advice to everyone else, stop being angry and start forgiving. There is so much more to life and we need to start living it, without the negativity.