Scared

    So I have been doing well, at least to my standards. I have been able to control my anxiety and I have stability in my life. I am good and happy. At least I thought I was good, until the tiniest little cloud of doubt invaded my body. And now I am terrified that all of my work will be for nothing. That I will revert to the mess of a person I was before. That this is all going to go away and i am gonna be trapped again. I just want to keep moving forward, but the uncertainty fills me and I don't know what to do. Am I strong enough to get through or am I gonna fall back and fail. Am I even doing enough.
   I know everyone feels this way from time to time. I have noticed and heard that so many people have anxiety, and I am not alone. Now, obviously people have anxiety and I am not the only one, but before nobody talked about their anxiety. 9 years ago when my anxiety first set in I felt so isolated trying desperately to.  explain to people what I as going through. I was having panic attacks walking to class or driving home and it was incredibly frightening especially at 19.
  I have come so far from where I was all those years ago. I still have fears and I still have anxiety over the most random things, but for the most part I can overcome it. My biggest issue now is my fear of change. I am so accustomed to the life I have now, but I need a change. I need to push myself to do more and do better. I know I can, but I am so afraid.
  Should I settle for average because it is easy and comfortable or should I strive for more, risk failure and everything else that comes along with that. Really all I can do is try and see what happens.