It is a long story...
Six months passed and she received a phone call, from a mysterious number. It was him. He called her and he was kind of a jerk, but it was nothing she didn't already know about him. At this point she had started to move on with her life, plus they lived hundred of miles apart. It was horrible she still felt connected to him.
Every now and then over the course of the next few years they stayed connected in one way or another. Nothing serious ever happened, but part of her always wondered about him. Truth be told she could never imagine a relationship or future with him, she just needed to know that at some point over the last decade he felt the same way.
One night, after so many years she got almost exactly what she wanted, only the timing was all wrong. She was in a relationship, and although she always wondered about him, it felt like it was too little too late. Trouble was he was persistent and she was a little bit weak. Every time she thought of him, he made her feel like that teenager who stole a kiss from her at school.
She turned him down, and told him it was too late, but she wondered about him and kept on wondering. It was enough to build into a hole in her heart that yearned for him and wanted to hear from him, just to see if there was anything there. They didn't speak for some time, and in that time she missed him more and more with each day. She searched for him, but simply couldn't find him anywhere. So she tried one last time, she found a way to find him, and she did.
She spent so much time going over and over in her head what she was going to say to him. Wrote down all of her feelings and thoughts, so she could get it right this time. He had to know how she felt, once and for all. Unfortunately he didn't respond the way she had hoped and then she didn't say exactly what she wanted. It all came out resentful, angry, and bitter. Upset that after putting herself out there for so many years that he thought his one gesture was enough to make up for all of that. It wasn't.
She decided she was finished with him. If she couldn't get what she wanted from him now, he was never going to come around. All she wanted was everything. She wanted to know if all that they shared was enough to risk an actual relationship not some unique complicated friendship. For so many years they got close to that point, but either one or both would back off.
She didn't want to live her life with the regret of not knowing how it might have turned out if they had just given the other a chance. She wanted so badly to give him a chance, give them a chance.
The problem was, she was 12 when she first told him she liked him and over a decade had passed since that time. They were both adults, and she had lived this whole entire life without him around. She cared about him the same, but she was a different person, so much had happened.
So much he could never understand...
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