Why?

I have so much to say, but most days I find it difficult to express what I am thinking or feeling. I think in life that will always be the greatest struggle saying what you mean and meaning what you say, at the exact moment you want to say it. We spend so much time waiting and waiting for the right moment and it never seems to come around. Then one day you are sitting around and suddenly it hits you, it is up to you to create that moment. Time won't stop for you, or me, it is just gonna keep on and we are gonna end up exactly where we never wanted to be. For me that is confused and more confused. For you that might be at a job you dislike, a city you hate, alone, or worse with someone you know is all wrong for you. Is that worse? What is the worst place to be? Some might say being alive is all that matters. You have your health and a loving family, then life is good. And most days it is good for some, but all it takes is one moment of wonder to cause you to reevaluate every decision you ever made.

I imagine that for most out there the scenario is less dire and they are perfectly content in their lives and most days the same is true for me. Unfortunately I have always been a deep thinker, one who questions everything to the point of neurosis. Like why is it two people cannot ever seem to want the same thing at the same time. Is that Divine intervention, fate, chance, or just stupidity on the part of both parties.Why can't life be simple?
Not every moment of every day, but every once in a while, can't it just be simple.

Simple would be telling someone you loved them and them loving you back and everything working out. Or having a good job without constantly worrying about job security, or living paycheck to paycheck. Life isn't perfect and I understand that, but some things in life SHOULD just be as simple as that.

I feel like a five year old with ten million questions always wanting to know why. Why? Why? Why?

Tell me anything and I will ask you why.

My suggestion to anyone reading this, get over yourself and your crap and just do it. Whatever it is, just do it. Life is hard, and complicated, and frustrating as hell, don't make it worse by holding on. Let it go. Stop waiting for that perfect time. Stop holding onto your ego, be real and honest and do it now. Who knows what might happen tomorrow. If you wait too long tomorrow you might be forced to ask yourself why.

I hope you enjoyed my random rant.