Alone

She struggled for months unsure of what to do next. In her mind their relationship had no chance of reconciling. She wanted to be able to see everything else that life and love had to offer. She was so young when she met him, what if there was something better out there. She was still so young, there was no urgency in settling down with one man for the rest of her life. Was it possible to end their relationship and maintain a friendship without everything becoming complicated and messy.

No. Because life is not that easy.

She started to reevaluate her own life and determine what she wanted outside of  their relationship, outside of any relationship. She spent so much time identifying herself, by her relationships, including friendships. Who would she be without said person in her life. Now she needed to find out who she was without herself standing in her own way. She was her biggest obstacle, constantly second guessing and questioning her own decisions.

She has always been such a quiet person from a distance, not one to speak her mind immediately. Well she intended on changing that, making sure that people knew who she was and make an impression. She was tired of standing on the sidelines of her own life. She needed this time to get her life together, without outside influence. As much as life is about the larger picture, it is also about each and every day that passes.

At this point there were so many people that had passed through her life and made an impact in one way or another. She had to understand that her life was not about these people, but about how she bounced back after  every negative interaction. Life had become so overwhelming, sometimes she wished it would just become easier, for one day.

Then something happened, that appeared to make it more difficult, but appearances aren't all they seem to be.