She felt like she was drowning, completely overwhelmed by everything, She needed a break. It was a cliche, but she really did believe the grass was greener on the other side. Even if it wasn't she needed to find out for herself.
She began searching for the guy who she believed held the answers she was searching for. Maybe he held that piece of her heart that kept her from fully loving her present love. If he did, didn't she owe it to everyone to find out the truth.
She found him, and he didn't seem to hold much of anything, but distant memories. Some of them were really good, but none of them seemed relevant. When she spoke to him, it was a recap of where she was in life now and remembering where they had been together all those years ago. He had her past, part of her innocence, and the part of her life that was so much less complicated. Because what seemed like the worlds biggest problems in high school, are nothing when put up against the real world.
That is exactly what it was, he wasn't real. She kept him in this nice corner of her life,where he knew just enough to understand,but not too much to make him a fixture in her life.Wait, so he wasn't a fixture in her life, even though they knew each other for over a decade. She realized, he was not, because he came and went as he pleased, showing up long enough just to catch up. She didn't love him, she cared for him, and missed him sometimes, but she didn't love him.
It did not take too long to figure that out, but now what was she going to do. She was still confused about so many other things in life.
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