Back Again

So I am back in Dallas. Getting here was incredibly difficult. Metaphorically and literally. There was a time when I lived to sit in a car and just drive. Then came the time where being in a car scared the shit out of me. Now I am somewhere in the middle. Somedays I can do it, other days I freak out. Anxiety is a sneaky little bitch. So imagine me sitting in a Uhaul traveling across the state . Now if we lived in Rhode Island or Conn., that would be one thing, but we live in freakin Texas. So of course traveling from the border of Mexico to the border of Oklahoma then to the metroplex is a long drive. 20 min into the drive I had to stop for a good 30min and calm myself down. In that moment I just to turn around and go home. After that we got back on the road and after that there was no turning back just lots of stopping so I could regain my composure. A 10hr drive took over 15 hr split over 2 days. Like I said its a bitch. I can't tell you how but I made it. I have had a few moments of frustration over my anxiety. I really try to try. I have so many fears now that I didn't have a few years ago. It's gonna take patience on my part but,  I am will get my life back and not live in fear.  I need to do a couple thing. . . 1) Find a support group or resources that will help with my anxiety. 2) Make new friends in the area. I think the latter will be the most difficult.

Okay so it's not an exciting entry, but who cares its my story. Check back soon.