Okay so I haven't been taking anti anxiety medication regularly. I have also been alone, which is big for me because being alone was a big trigger for my anxiety. There were so many triggers and slowly I have managed to manage them. I even went to the dentist and I was scared because I hate dentists. It all seems so small but to me it's so big. There is still more I need to accomplish but for now I think I am doing pretty good. Of course it could all go to shit at any minute but that's life. Anything can happen. Good, bad or in between and I am okay with that. Seriously I am okay with that. It is hard though, trying to find myself. I am just starting. I always feel like I am disappointing people, but they don't have to live my life I do, so I can't let it stop me. I know it seems like I share so much here, but if you only knew.
You are not me and I am not you. Your life experiences and the choices you made, they worked for you, but not for me. I didn't fail, I tried.
There was a point about a year ago, even a few months ago where I was afraid of so many things. Everyday I am afraid of less and less. I can't be afraid.
I am not afraid. I am ready.
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